Sunday, March 22, 2009

And Then There Was One...

Yep. One.

Which is better than none - and I know "it only takes one", but ONE of my eggs fertilized. One.

The nurse didn't even try my cell phone to break that news - she just left it on the home voice mail. She said, "we retrieved 3 eggs and all 3...were mature". I was really expecting her to say that all 3 had fertilized. "of those, 1 fertilized..." I saved the message because I didn't hear a whole lot after that.

This is just fertilization - that's the easy part. We haven't really had an issue with that before. Our issue is the embryos growing. And we only have one.

The finality of this IVF hit me with that phone call. This. Is. It. Wow. We've always had something else to try, a back-up plan, another angle. Not now. This one little embryo is our only hope. That fact makes our chances of ever having a child incredibly slim. But as long as there's a sliver of a chance, we have to continue to be hopeful.

So now we pray. We pray like crazy for this one little embryo that could.

7 comments:

Karen said...

Allison, I wish you had more than one, but I'll pray with you that this one is THE one. I'm sorry this is all so hard.

Anonymous said...

Aw sweets. Huge hugs.

Lorraine said...

It has to happen sometimes - no reason to think it can't be this time. Absolutely best wishes to you.

Carissa said...

I'm wishing you all the best and sending all of my positive energy your way!

Meghan said...

Thinking of you and sending some good thoughts your way

Anonymous said...

definitely thinking of you and of your embrio, praying that as in many other cases this one is the one.
hugs
Giulia

Steph said...

Here's hoping that is a tough little embryo. Thinking of you....