If even ONE of these things indicated that I was pregnant, I would be loving it. (Woo-hoo, morning sickness!) However, apparently, these are just the joys of taking estrogen and progesterone. The post-procedure instruction sheet they gave me after the transfer even says "the presence of any of these side effects in no way indicates that you are - or are not - pregnant". Thanks.
1 - Fatigue. This is always listed as a side effect of medications and I never take it seriously. I guess that is because I've never had it before. I could fall asleep at any given second. I'm seriously considering putting my head down on my desk right now. Zzzzzzzzzzz....
2 - Bloating. Even my fattest fat pants are tight. At this rate, I'll need to buy maternity clothes even if I'm not pregnant.
3 - Constipation. Ummmm...yeah. See #2. I'm chugging Metamucil. (See, Dad - not only can I say it, I can spell it too!) I know you're jealous.
4 - Breast Tenderness. To say that my bra feels like a vice is the understatement of the year.
5 - Lower Back Pain / Cramping. Can someone please take the screwdriver out of my lower back? Thanks.
People were asking how I was feeling, and I said "great!" I was being honest until last night. I felt like I had been hit by a truck once I got home from dinner with the girls. I didn't want to get up this morning, didn't want to come to work, didn't want to DO any work (why do you think I'm blogging now?). I guess all these hormones finally caught up with me. Maybe the weekend will snap me out of it.
This is also the first time I've gotten emotional about all this. I thought the hormonal insanity would hit while I was doing the ovarian stimulation, not now. I feel like everyone is sure that this IVF will work. Everyone but me. The success rate at my clinic for IVF for women under 35 is around 50%. That should be comforting, but it's not. I keep hearing the voice of my high school physics teacher after he posed a yes/no question to the class - "Well, Allison - you had a 50/50 shot and you blew it". Who knew my fertility problems would invoke the voice of good ol' Mr. Coleman?
Anyway, I'm trying to stay positive. What's the saying? - if you think you can't, you're right. Even though I'm a little grumpy, these side effects really aren't a big deal at all. If it gets me closer to being a mom, it's all worth it. Plus, I'm imagining pregnancy is WAY worse in terms of discomfort!
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oh, hon! it IS so easy for everyone else to think it worked because they haven't been through all of the BFNs. i'm sure you feel the pressure for it to work b/c everyone believes it will. there is no way to go through these next few days w/o being an emotional wreck. and i do agree, the 2WW is much worse than the lead-up.
you are doing great!!! and please don't feel like not being sure if it worked will make it NOT WORK. that is so not true, and just puts more pressure on you! you have been though ENOUGH! take each minute, hour, and day as it comes, and deal with it as best as you can. and have an ice cream sundae while you are at it. ;)
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