Friday, June 6, 2008

I Did It! Part 2

The baby visit was great. Lauren looked amazing and happy and so natural as a mother. It was neat to see her in that role. I thought I would be jealous, but I wasn't. Not because I don't want that, or anything. It's just that her happiness and her wonderful little boy really have nothing to do with my situation and I could fully be happy for her. Again, not sure if it's denial or progress or what, but it felt good. I guess I can at least chalk it up to having a good day. I think it also helps that I'm not cycling and pumped full of crazy-making hormones. I didn't try to hold him, though. I think I would have been okay, but I didn't want to risk it. Sometimes the slightest things turn a good day very bad. And I didn't want to put any sort of damper on our visit.

I'll be away for a little while. As I mentioned, I'm meeting my friend AT her family's place at the Jersey Shore for a spontaneous beach trip. I was complaining that I was not going to have any vacations this year with Michael being in Alabama, and wouldn't you know it - she came to the rescue. So yay for AT and yay for the beach!

1 comment:

Barb said...

Good for you sweetie.