Converted

It sounds so dramatic, doesn't it? Like we changed religions or something.

It's actually not dramatic at all. I am so grateful that my doctor mentioned it early on so that we had a few days to come to terms with it and accept it. Michael and I were both leaning towards converting after the conversation with my doctor yesterday, but thought we were still torn. After re-reading my blog post, it sounded so obvious. What I wanted to do was right there staring me in the face, despite my protesting that I didn't know what to do. Thank you for your kind words in the comments. And you are right - it would be so much easier if someone could tell you what the right answer is.

I'm looking at it this way - we've been given another chance at IVF. Why wouldn't we take it? Yes, it means I won't know for sure whether or not we'll have children by February 16th. Yes, it means that I'll have to endure another round of shots and hormones. Yes, it means yet another roller coaster when I thought we'd be done. But for another shot (no pun intended) at having a child - all of that is unquestionably worth it.

Now, I'm not totally counting the IUI out. (Okay, honestly? So maybe I am. I figure, if IVF with ICSI and Assisted Hatching didn't work - the chances of the IUI working are pretty much nill.) I guess there's always a chance since no one seems to have any clue why we can't conceive. (But my uncooperative ovaries are giving me a big ol' hint...)

So we do the trigger shot tonight and then the IUI on Friday. My doctor will present our case to the panel Monday night (2/2/09) and call us Tuesday to talk about the plan for the next IVF. (See? Even he knows the IUI is a long shot...) Even though I'm not getting any younger and my IVF cycles have gotten progressively worse, he still thinks I would do the same, if not better in another cycle. I'm all for the Hail Mary.

P.S. Jamie - I actually DID ask my doctor what he'd do if he were in my shoes today and he said convert. But to answer your question about freezing the eggs - if they did the egg retrieval, that would count as IVF and insurance wouldn't cover it. My doctor seems to think I have a few good ones left. ;-)