Break Time

(Doesn't that make you think about the lifeguard at the pool blowing the whistle?)

Like clockwork, I started my period 2 days before the pregnancy test was scheduled. I should have updated you all sooner, but Michael's parents were in town visiting so I wasn't really on the computer. I think that was a good thing - I couldn't get too down in the dumps this time as I had other things to focus on. I also hadn't let my hopes get too high since nothing was different. Don't get me wrong, I'm still sad, but I just kind of expected it I guess.

I am not going in for any Day 3 bloodwork this time. We need a break from all this. I'm happy to have a month (at least) of relaxing and not injecting myself with anything. I'm not even going to go in for any acupuncture. In some ways I am feeling relieved, and in some ways I am feeling anxious and impatient. I know that patience is something I need to work on anyway, so the break will be good for me. We're going to the beach in a few weeks (and already counting down the days). We need some time away. Vacation, beach, break time, it's all good.

Thanks for all your kind words and prayers. I realized I've been focusing a lot of energy on my unanswered prayers of having a child when I have so much in my life to be thankful for otherwise. I am going to try to spend more time being thankful than being wishful. Thank you all for always being there and for being so understanding.

I might not update the blog as much on the break, but who knows. I might still have those random emotional freak-outs even though I'm not shooting up with hormones.