(Hopefuly Moot) Decisions

We had our IVF consultation with the RE this morning. He did answer most of our questions, but the main question I want the answer to - WHY can't we get pregnant - is of course, impossible to answer. He does not think my thyroid issue has any bearing on my ability to get pregnant. He said it would, however, impact my ability to maintain a pregnancy. I asked for possible reasons that the IUI hadn't worked - and there are many: sprem not being able to get to the fallopian tubes, fallopian tubes not releasing the egg properly, defective eggs, body producing antibodies rejecting sperm or fertilized egg, sperm not penetrating egg, etc.

If & when we do IVF, we will be able to see some of those things in action - for example, if the sperm can't penetrate the egg since it will be happening in a petri dish. Oh - and I did ask about the chances again. Each IUI has a 15-18% chance of being successful. IVF has a 55-60% chance of being successful. We have the option to do one more IUI or to go straight to IVF now. Our insurance will cover 3 IVF cycles.

I honestly don't know what we will do. Michael and I didn't have time to talk about any of this today, as we both had to get to work after the appointment. IVF has a much better success rate, but it is also much more invasive. I might do a separate post about what IVF involves, as the RE went through that with us today too.

And, of course, the hormones rage on. I nearly started crying today twice for no good reason. Once during our consult and then again during our management team meeting where we were discussing a case where a 3 year old had broken ribs, broken leg, fractured skull, etc. Yes, it's sad - but I hear these things ALL THE TIME. Pull it together, man!

So whatever we do, I think I need a break from these hormones to get some of my normal self back. Of course, I'm hoping we won't have to make the decision at all! However, I think we need to have a plan in place just in case.