Gifts

Happy Holidays everyone! I got the best present ever - Michael being HOME. His parents came up and we had a nice visit. We spent Christmas Day at my parents' house and for the first time, we did Secret Santa instead of gifts for everyone. We did one person for a real gift and one person for a joke gift. This was totally the way to go, by the way. It took the stress out of Christmas shopping and was just a ton of fun. We used elfster.com and had the computer generate and e-mail our matches so no one really had to coordinate. Good stuff.

So we are embarking on IVF #3. I kind of can't believe it. I go in for the mock embryo transfer tomorrow. We haven't gotten our results from the genetic testing yet, but that shouldn't be long now. I will start the ovulation predictor kits tomorrow and once I get a positive result, I'll alert my nurse and start the Lupron shortly after that.

It's funny - part of me is excited to start up again, but another part of me likes the ambiguity. If you've ever taken the Myers-Briggs, one of the questions is about whether you like things to be decided or up in the air. I've always had a hard time with that question and now I know why. I like things BOTH ways. I'm ready for this IVF to be over with so that we can know once and for all whether we will have children. On the other hand, I'm terrified for this IVF to be over because I like having hope for the future. The possibility that we will have children is still there if this IVF hasn't happened yet.

But, here we go. I'm embracing the part of me that likes to have things decided.

We just received word of a late Christmas present. Michael's brother, Christian and his wife, Korie just welcomed their second son into the world earlier today. Everyone is healthy and doing well. Happy Birthday, Baby Max!

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