You know, I hadn't thought about it this way, but having the hysteroscopy and D&C done on the last day of 2008 was kind of appropriate. 2008 was really a crap year for me. The funny part is - I knew it going in. I don't think I quite knew HOW crappy it would be, but I posted about it being a year to "get through". Boy, was I right about that. But we survived - and bad things in 2008 mean that 2009 can only get better. That's why it was good to get that surgery out of the way in the "bad year". ;-)
The surgery went fine. No problems. I was annoyed when coming out of the anesthesia because I just wanted to SLEEP. I had more bleeding than I've ever had before, but that is normal apparently. We came home to a huge box and a cooler on the stoop with my IVF meds - so I'm technically ready. Polyp removed? Check. Meds? Check. Desire to shoot myself up with mood-altering substances? Okay, still working on that one.
Michael made a wonderful dinner tonight out of a cookbook we got for Christmas - Pork Scallopini with Greens & Polenta. It was awesome! I felt bad sitting on my butt playing a word game on his Xbox while he did all the work, but he takes good care of me. We have tiramisu and cannoli for dessert (we couldn't decide) with Prosecco for our midnight toast. Sadly, a toast is all I can do because of the anesthesia today. (I even tried to find some sort of cheap rationalization on the Internet, but it was of no help. Everything said no alcohol for 24 hours.) Since the nurse told me I could do a toast, I'm following her advice. ;-)
I hate to be so down on 2008. Some good things really did happen. Instead of focusing on the bad, here are a few good things from 2008:
- I took up running
- I lost 10 lbs
- I got to spend time with my family at the beach
- I met some wonderful people at the leadership institute in Atlanta whom I feel will be lifelong friends
- We cured my "heartburn" (gall bladder removal)
- Michael came home
- I got a new nephew
- I found a good therapist
Really, the best thing that happened in 2008 was that I learned a lot about myself during the year. I'm not going to list all the things I learned, mainly because I want to spend time with Michael tonight - not spend all night on the computer.
I will sign off wishing everyone a wonderful 2009. Thank you for all your support, prayers, and friendship. Happy New Year!
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you said you hate to be so down on 2008 - but you do have every right to be. i felt that way about 2007. you did achieve some really wonderful personal goals in 2008, and like you said they are not to be discounted. and i ruefully laughed at your observation that ending the year with surgery was appropriate. i ended my 2007 with surgery also and i felt the same way.
here's to wishing you and michael a really wonderful 2009. after the disappointments of 2008, you both only deserve the best this year.
i'll be stalking your cycle.
love and xxxxs and oooos,
i
Yay! Things sound good!
2008 was a big year of self-discovery for me too. At the risk of soumding cliche - sometimes you have to be in the dark to find the light. Tons of hugs and sincerest wishes for 2009 to bring you more peace and happiness.
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