The gall bladder has got to go.
I had my MRI results sent to both my primary care doctor and the gastroenterologist. They both called me with the same news - liver is fine, gall bladder is not. Well, it is, but apparently I have some massive stones in there and they think that I'll have future attacks. Especially if I get pregnant.
Pregnant, huh? So here is where I'm feeling a little silly. Statistically, I'm not likely to get pregnant. Even with IVF. But I still have that hope that it will happen for me. And how could I go into the final IVF knowing that I might have a gall bladder attack resulting in surgery that would put that little bean at risk? I couldn't - and so it's bye-bye Mr. Gall Bladder. But still, I feel a little silly for having something removed that isn't currently hurting me.
Of course, I'm jumping the gun a bit here because I haven't even met with the surgeon yet - that isn't until the 22nd. But given that 2 out of 2 doctors have recommended surgery, I'm guessing the SURGEON will recommend surgery too. I know, crazy thought.
Michael will still be in Alabama when I have surgery. He would like for me to wait until he is home and can properly wait on me hand and foot. And as tempting as that sounds, I think I want to get it over and done with. I want to be fully healed so that we can do our last IVF in December. Why December? Well, our family has some wonderful news that I haven't shared here. I have nephews and/or a neice due in January and March. Michael's brother Christian and his wife, Korie are pregnant with a new little brother for Carson (who, by the way thinks the best name for his baby brother is... Carson). And my little sister, Ashley and her husband Tom are pregnant with their first. I cannot wait to meet these 2 little additions! I'm not going to lie - it has been a rough year with Michael gone and all this joy going around to everyone else, it seems. But when I think about having neices and nephews to play with, spoil, dote on - I just get all warm and fuzzy inside.
So, December. I want all this fertility crap to be over and done with for their arrivals. Being in the throes of hormonal imbalance when my little sister gives birth to her first child would not be fun. Nor would it make me a particularly helpful big sister. I want to know where we stand in the world of fertility and our potential to be parents. Will it still be hard to welcome these perfect little babies into the world? No question, but at least we'll know the deal with us. And of course, there IS the potential that the IVF will work, and then I can see first hand what I've gotten myself into. ;-)
My mom thinks that Michael and I might need a few months together once he comes back. And she's not wrong. I don't relish the thought of spending our nights together with the hypodermic needle in hand. But my eggs aren't getting any younger and I feel like I've waited long enough already. My 36th birthday is in February. I want a baby. If I can't have one, I want to be done with this and move on. I don't WANT to wait any longer. I don't know. Anyone have any opinions on this? What would you do - go for it in December or put it off until April?
Wow. This went from a post about my gall bladder to an announcement of my family's pregnancies, to a poll about when to do our last IVF.
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I think that it sounds like you are fine with going for it in December and why not? I think December, January, Feb... they are all great months to work on a baby! I am excited for your family! I have always heard things come in threes.... Maybe it is a good sign. I;m sorry for the gall bladder, but at least it will be done and over with soon!
that is the great thing about blogging - you can throw everything including the kitchen sink in one post and your loyal readers have all the time in the world to dissect your post and respond appropriately, because it is all typed out there for us to read when we have the time!
re: the gall bladder - i agree, i wouldn't wait to have surgery, either. firstly, you do NOT want to be sitting around waiting for a gall bladder attack. we know baby steps to baby shoes had them, and my mom had one, and both of them ended up in the ER. so, let's try to avoid that, shall we. as long as you will have post-surgical support outside of michael, then why not go ahead!
re: your next IVF cycle. if december sounds good to you, it sounds good to me! i understand wanting to do it before the babies arrive for all of the reasons you mentioned. plus, unlike many couples doing IVF, you've taken off so many months in between cycles. so why make yourself wait even longer? if you wait until april, it will be almost ONE year since you last cycle. you shouldn't make yourself wait that long. you've already waited long enough.
xoxoxoxox
I think you're making very good decisions. :) Sorry about your gall bladder. If it's that bad though, it's gonna have to go at some point anyway, so now is as good a time as any. I'm like you, the longer I wait, the more I chicken out, so I want to get it done and over with! :)
xo
I feel your pain. I started trying to have a baby in March 2005, got pregnant right away and then lost it at 6 weeks. After trying on our own for almost a year, we went to our MD and started the series of testing. Nov 2006, I started Clomid. Six mos. later, we were pregnant and actually had an early ultrasound, so great. Two weeks later, I lost the baby again. Five days after my D&C, I started to have RUQ pain and went for more testing, yep, the gallbladder. So off to the surgeon I went. On july 3rd I had it out. My logic was, why wait for another attack, when I could remove it when I wanted to and knowing that we will soon start another round of hormone treatment. I don't fit the profile for needing my gallbladder out, but they think it might be related to the hormones. Best of luck with your surgery, should you choose that road.
Has anyone been on Femara before? That my next line of drugs, before I go to injections.
I agree with having the gallbladder out now. the recoup is not so bad. most of the women in my family have gallbladder issues and I expect to have mine out someday too. ;)
If December is the month you want to do IVF, then do it. Yes, it is a pain to jump right into after having Micheal back, but you guys have the rest of your lives to enjoy each other. You don't want to be kicking yourself later for not going with your instincts and desires.
Good luck. You know I'm rooting for you.
Mr Gallbladder? it sounds funny to me, I guess in Italian is a Ms...never thought of a male gallbladder, or GB as we friendly called it in my lab. I am sorry for the GB having to go, but I agree completely with you, the sooner the better...
Re: December....if you don't want to wait any longer, why wait? I agree, my Bday is also in Feb...when is yours? and we are not getting younger...though i think you are getting prettier :)
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